"I can't stick to doing just one thing"
It's hard to find little me in this big church, but there I am conducting Mozart's Eine Kleine Nachtmusik in 2018. If you asked me why, at 22 years old, with no orchestral experience, I decided that I wanted to grab a baton and conduct and orchestra...
I don't definitively know.
Conducting is connected to everything else I do. It has the leadership aspect of teaching that appeals to me--the pedagogy and the mentorship. In a rehearsal you have to be able to explain what you mean--a thrilling challenge.
But it also has the performance aspect of singing, and the intellectual, analytical aspect of academia. In a way, it is a culmination of all the skills I've gathered throughout my career.
WHO AM I?
I always answer this with the three descriptives I'm feeling at the time:
SINGER. VOICE TEACHER. MUSIC DIRECTOR.
CREATOR. EDUCATOR. COMPOSER/ARRANGER.
But who am I beyond these words?
I'm a 26-year-old woman (as of 2020!) who is often mistaken for someone much younger.
I LOVE MY JOB (can you tell?)
I have a thirst for knowledge, and a need to share that knowledge (which is why I teach!)
I have a passion for design, makeup, and anything aesthetically pleasing.
My voice is my main instrument, and singing is my sport 😉
I decided it would be a good idea to learn orchestral conducting with no experience playing in orchestra.
Sometimes I'm crippled by perfectionism, but I'm actively working on it.
So instead of "who am I?"... What am I?
PERSISTENT. DETAIL-ORIENTED. HARD-WORKING.